To preempt this, my girlfriend gave me a list of ten things that one can do to develop a daily habit of spending time with God. I have decided to go through them, one by one, the next ten days!
“Examine yourselves to see if your faith is genuine. Test yourselves. Surely you know that Jesus Christ is among you; if not, you have failed the test of genuine faith.”-2 Corinthians 13:5
So. Genuine faith. Not just the expression of “oh yea, I know about Jesus. Cool dude. What? Yea, I believe in Him.” It’s a visceral, real intimate knowledge that Jesus Christ is Lord-that He came down, fully God and fully man, to live among us and eventually give Himself a sacrifice so that we could have life. It’s to have a relationship with Him.
In that regard, yes! I do have genuine faith. I was saved October 9, 2010, listening to evangelist David Owens preach. My life hasn’t been the same since.
But the verse talks about examining my faith. The word examine means to (according to dictionary.com) Inspect (someone or something) in detail to determine their nature or condition; investigate thoroughly.
Diving into my faith, right now, is it really genuine? Do I fully believe in all of the things that I say, and preach? Well…yes. I have had a rough go of it lately though. My family has been turned upside down, my college life hangs in the balance, I have projects due, I have jobs to find, things to keep in order, sins I struggle with…
In spite of all of this I do believe. In fact, I believe now stronger than I ever have. Would you like to know why?
Because in the midst of all of my troubles and trials, God is there. And that is enough for me. When I try and take the reigns myself-like the past few weeks-I get discouraged, because it’s too much for me to handle.
EXACTLY. THAT’S THE WARNING SIGN AND FLAG AND BELLS AND ALL THAT.
When we, as humans, try and control our own crazy lives, it just leads to more destruction. This I have experienced multiple times, first hand. Even this past month I’ve just been feeling drained, like I had to do allll this stuff on my own. But I don’t. When I told my girlfriend, Selah, that I felt so far from God, do you know what she said? Not “Oh, I’m so sorry Michael, I’m sure it will get better. God’s got you!”. No. She told me to stop complaining about how I feel far from God, get back into the Word and into praying, and get back!
Because she knows that God is always there for us. It’s me that walked away from Him, and it’s me that needs to get back. Now, I need God’s help with the things in my life. But I reach Him through constant prayer, reading, communion with other saints. Was my faith genuine in this time? No, to be honest. I claimed to love God but wouldn’t even turn to Him in a time of need. Instead I looked to other means to find my solace. I’m glad I can see this now, that it’s been brought to my attention. Now I can move forward in confidence!
The thing I have realized is that life gets stressful and overwhelming when I don’t keep up MY end of the relationship-when I don’t walk my talk. Nobody can accuse God of not fulfilling His end. The victory is already won. It’s just my job to boldly claim it.
In conclusion, my faith is stronger than ever! But my attitude and faith in the immediate situations in life does NOT reflect my overall belief in God. What I need to do is turn back from trying things myself, and get back to God-a topic I’ll talk about tomorrow!
~Michael Wright, Jr.~